of using a laptop which keyboard is messed up

Many ber-sorry-an to all who read this blog.. Haven't updated in a bit cos exams are coming and this fucked up com that belongs to my dad, the damned spacebar and letter P dont work!!! How i wanna type out long-long using on screen keyboard right, sure jadi gila wei... so i'll try to work that out soon, not sure how(bashing the keyboard with my fist or keep jabbing at those two buttons till they agree to work with me instead of against me)

Till then, take care mates...

of being Broken

Fell so weak right now, like i just cant sum up the effort to live..
What do you do when someone you've liked so much and tried to court for the past 4 years or so say that, we won't be together ever, what we are is just friends... Feel so much for her, she is the loveliest i've ever met, and ever will, all these years and no one's been able to avert my eyes, thoughts and heart from her.. And to hear that is a sure heart breaker.. and if she broke the friendship as well, the heart break and depression would be enough to kill me, no need for suicide..go look up broken heart syndrome..
This song by Lifehouse here quite perfectly sums up what i'm feeling and thinking bout.... good luck to me gettin over her and giving my love to someone more deserving as she asked of me.. in my very messed up life, she was what i hoped as the source of happiness to come, but she thinks other wise.. isnt it just amazingly fucked up to be me, damned to be alone and turned away from possibly the only one he could ever show love to... Haih, just pray the the chest pump doesnt give way, but if ur one who dont like me then do otherwise, to see yours truly in the obituary section of his favourite daily, The Star..
The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will, I'll be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you