Stay away from here Ropaa! or else....

of loving the whole world

 Just love this video! Such a catchy tune...boomdeyada, boomdeyadaaa....! Discovery is dope, too bad I dont have astro..

of waiting for a bloody moment please!!

Finally exams are over but this keyboard is still not fixed, so sorta got to hold the mouse in my hand and type at the same time, but enough with that nothing i can do about that anymore, so fuck it.
So ya, exams are over moral paper was a piece of shit to answer, and mum is a total ass at times.
She came back and passed me a pamphlet to read and explain to her bout some Digi promo, literally 4 seconds later she asks me what is it saying, and this aint no simple pamphlet, it needed waaaaay more than fucking 4 secs to read over, i said wait la i'm not done yet, you just gave it to me.....and she starts her fucking bitching that is half the time full of utter shit and with her self made delusion that her logic is undeniable so i gave it to her and told her to read it herself then cos i didn't understand it! When actually its cos I'm not taking a truckload of bullshit into my ears for stuff like this! Then can buat lawak bodoh saying, I thought you very smart what?
Well..... I Don't Give A Fuck!!!!!!!
You can go ahead and say cheeky shit all you want. You tell me not to answer back?! what the fuck, i'm not some dog you can kick around with that prehistoric excuse, "because i'm the mother and you shouldn't answer back"
Tolong la, with what you say who wouldn't answer back, you wanna talk to something that wont answer back then go talk to the damn wall!!      but then again with your blabbering even the fucking walls will tell you off!

of using a laptop which keyboard is messed up

Many ber-sorry-an to all who read this blog.. Haven't updated in a bit cos exams are coming and this fucked up com that belongs to my dad, the damned spacebar and letter P dont work!!! How i wanna type out long-long using on screen keyboard right, sure jadi gila wei... so i'll try to work that out soon, not sure how(bashing the keyboard with my fist or keep jabbing at those two buttons till they agree to work with me instead of against me)

Till then, take care mates...

of being Broken

Fell so weak right now, like i just cant sum up the effort to live..
What do you do when someone you've liked so much and tried to court for the past 4 years or so say that, we won't be together ever, what we are is just friends... Feel so much for her, she is the loveliest i've ever met, and ever will, all these years and no one's been able to avert my eyes, thoughts and heart from her.. And to hear that is a sure heart breaker.. and if she broke the friendship as well, the heart break and depression would be enough to kill me, no need for suicide..go look up broken heart syndrome..
This song by Lifehouse here quite perfectly sums up what i'm feeling and thinking bout.... good luck to me gettin over her and giving my love to someone more deserving as she asked of me.. in my very messed up life, she was what i hoped as the source of happiness to come, but she thinks other wise.. isnt it just amazingly fucked up to be me, damned to be alone and turned away from possibly the only one he could ever show love to... Haih, just pray the the chest pump doesnt give way, but if ur one who dont like me then do otherwise, to see yours truly in the obituary section of his favourite daily, The Star..
The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will, I'll be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

of bug zappers a.k.a fly killer

Had a presentation in class today, was bout starting a restaurant with a capital of fictional RM 300,000..
Dont say, 'Waaah, 300,000 only where got enough?' some of the other groups managed to set up their restaurant with half the dough! (fuyo) we had to base it all as much as possible on actual building rent rates, furniture prices and so on la, u get the idea la.. with 3 to group and less then 2 weeks to do, it was a total rush to the end and with one member being  total nut, telling us the day before todays dead line that.......... (wait for it)
                                       Eh, wat to do ah, i dunno how to do lo, how ah, how ah? eh, you two can do for me ah?
we were like HAAR?!  PKM PUNYA BUDAK NI, DAH EXPLAIN TERANG-TERANG BAGI DIA, LEBIH TERANG DARI LAMPU KALIMANTANG, THEN LAGI BOLEH TANYA KITE ORANG BUAT BAGI DIA!!!??? CIPAN PUN TAK SEBATU DIA NI!
But after all that plus much more expletives that u can come up with, me and the other guy managed to get our act on the road, (legaaa....)
So we presented or stuff in front, then while i was explaining bout my kitchen design which looks like........

i got to number 12, oh ya FYI 5 is a fridge, so 12 is the bug zapper aka fly killer, the class went a li'l cuckoo, gettin all excited over me having a fly killer in  there, i was like, 'huh? apa jadi wei?? aku silap jari tunjuk ke?'

see, see it cos no one else figured to put one in their own layouts, so kira gempak a bit la at the time, tapi aku relax ony la, fly killer ony la, small matter dei.. funny people in me class..

will find out soon enough the scores for that assigment, hope all goes well!  :)

and may the fly killer.. oops.. i mean the Force be with meee....

till next time..

of first times

My first post ever, didnt start a blog just because a lot of my other friends have one as well but thought of it as something very different from my rather routine life, and from wt i've heard, placings ads could earn me an extra buck, see how things go in time..

Life's been wild so far, realizing big gap in my football skills after playing with the Kdu team they're waay better.. adapting to being back in a studyin environment now tat i'm in college de, feels really out of place studyin again after so long, but enjoying the course anyway, been a lil over year since i beat the shit outta the"man",wish i had done worse come to think of it..

Missing my friends, but do get to see the likes of yi min, choo and others in college.. but wit deepavali coming round, i'm bound to be reunited with some other older mates, varun, vince (babi bandar, etc..)
Gotta go now zzz time, lookin forward to my next post.. see ya..

ps: pic above was taken on a morning during form 6, a new day..